My heart bleeds,

I can feel the blood running down my torso,

between my breast like a waterfall of warm liquid.

But I pull,

 I pull even harder.

I can feel my pain,

my crushing, self destructive pain

But I ignore it

And still I pull my heart out,

and watch it

where I threw it

still throbbing in the mud of yesterday’s torrential rain,

my heart still pulsating,

bleeding in the mud

and all that blood

covers the memories of yesterday’s storm

And then I see today

my heart,

I feel my empty shell

doubled over in pain

and I kneel down to retrieve my heart

before the herd of dogs

suddenly stands there with teeth bared

And I want my heart back,

my life,

my hope ,

my future.