i will unlock the door that has been closed
i will free the monsters and the butterflies trying to escape
they will scare and beautify-
make some feel intimidated
while others will leap for joy.
i will bear my naked truths-explicitly
and you will all wonder who i really am.
you will dissect my soul as if i asked you to
when i merely needed to release-
to unburden myself,
free myself from the weight that i carry around in my head-
my neck, my shoulders, my heart, my stomach,
my legs and my thighs.
i will let it all go out from this secret place
and spread it all across the pages of my books-
until i can really feel-
really love again.