So of course

The day that I actually need them they are no where to be found

The one day and I only asked for one day

That I really needed them to support me they aren’t there

I mean I know the only one I can truly trust to always be there is God

But they were mine

Mine to use at my disposal

Mine to manipulate

They were apart of me

A union created before I even knew they existed

My gift from God

That now seems to only show up when they feel like it

But I’m living on borrowed time

Every minute that I lose, I’m just that much closer to failure

And today that’s not an option

So please words

You’ve hidden within bottled up emotions for long enough

Avoided judgement from others for long enough

its time to take a leap of faith out of my mind and onto the screen that sits before me

And as my fingers take lead with feverish strokes on the keys

I know they are ready

And so it begins