a slight snag

don’t : what? : you better not : be about to say : what i think you’re about to say : which should be easy : cos i have no idea : how we got here : 

just moments earlier : i was telling stella about : what i saw : inside the pod : or what i didn’t see : perhaps more accurately : given it was kinda : futuristic igloo : crossed with minimalistic man cave : for the modern adventuring extraterrestrial : but i hadn’t even gotten : to the good bit : about how i escaped : before she started going off at me : for doing dangerous things : & leaving her & reuben & the kids : in the lurch : & what point did i think : i was making : climbing the white ladder : in the first place : & we’ren’t we trying : to lay low : & not draw attention : to ourselves : & i promise : i wasn’t about to say : are you gonna stop nagging : so i can tell you what i found out : although i think  that’s what stella thought i was about to say : & maybe it was : but seriously : it’s cool what i’ve learnt : & she’s making me feel bad : just cos she thinks : i was taking an unnecessary risk : which maybe i was : okay which i definitely was : but how : do i tell her : jumping on that ladder : was the first time : i’d felt hopeful : since the whole : invasion-thing started : well not the first time : obviously : being with her is : pretty amazing : (most of the time) : but hitching the ride : made me feel i was actually : fighting back : or at least : trying to resist : or learn about the enemy : & then she says : of course : you don’t care : i was terrified : you were never coming back : & suddenly : it all makes : a lot more sense : & i realise what : a complete arse : i’ve been : & i’m not sure : how to get out of it : except by saying :

you’re right : i’m sorry