Wide awake
Mr. Sandman where are my dreams?
Silence all around me
Chaos in my head
Blank stares
It’s 3 am
I should be sleep
But I’m sitting straight up in bed
My anxiety is playing tricks on me
The lack of sleep got me questioning my sanity
Snap back to reality
My heart is racing
I feel the panic settling in
The fear floods my insides
Here’s the start of the panic attacks again
Breathe
Pray
This has become a everyday thing
Anxiety
Depression
It’s real
And it’s a awful feeling
The stress always keeps me worrying
Even when I tell myself everything is okay
Sleeplessness has become my normal
There has to be a better way
At this point I can’t deny
I wish I could get my old life back
The one where my mom was still here
Back when everything didn’t weigh so heavy on my spirit
Back before I became an insomniac