I look just like you.
If I never said, you’d never know.
I wear clean clothes,
Listen to pop music,
Color pictures on my cell phone,
Prefer Fuji apples to Opal,
Voted in the last election,
Wonder why the Kardashians still have a show.
I even attend school;
I’m a sophomore.
I have a mom,
A car,
A 3.2 GPA.
I have a name.
I don’t have a home.
Yeah. Gasp, right?
But, but you look so normal!
I am. I’m normal. A normal, 20-year-old girl.
I just don’t have a home.
No, I’m not transgender,
And my daddy didn’t sell me
Into sexual slavery.
But damn straight we should
Care about those folks
And help them out!
Nah, I’m a lot luckier.
I mean, yeah, I’m a lesbian, but my
Mom didn’t care too much.
When I turned eighteen, child support just stopped
And social services started docking her checks.
She cried when she asked me to leave.
My older sister took me in for a bit,
But when her boyfriend started beating her up,
I just… left.
I have a job, you know.
I use my sister’s address.
I wait tables.
I buy clothes and make-up at Walmart.
Sometimes, I save enough for a motel room.
Other times, I crash at friends’.
Occasionally, I’ll lay the seat down
In my car and snooze.
I bathe regularly. I smell fine. I eat okay.
The only cardboard sign
I’ve ever held
Advertised a middle school car wash.
I even dated a sweet girl for a few months.
I sneaked into her dorm room a few times,
Until her roommate ratted us out.
I probably sit right next to you in College Algebra
Or Psychology.
I’m your group partner,
Your fry-wielding server,
The person who passes you
On the freeway.
I’m the bogeywoman
Who keeps so many clutching their
Blankets and politics
As tightly as possible
To their chests.
Extremely moving. Many years ago, when I was that age about–I knew quite a few like her. It was a different time and place. Sadly, it’s been happening for years. #Lovely #Honest
Thank you so much for the kind words. I admit some of these details are a wee bit autobiographical. 🙂 And yes, it’s disturbing how common this is.
Moving indeed. I could even see titling it “Bogeywoman.”
I do love that word. 😉
You had my interest, my attention, almost to the end, telling me all about my prejudices and shortcomings. Then you called me names by calling yourself names I never would have. And you lost me. In your judgment. In your decision of who I am.
Thank you for the feedback! Perhaps I should pull back on the politics in here. 🙂
No, lyricasocialogist…Be U! Be.U.T.ful! You are talking about issues that need to be worked through–for lots of people. Isn’t that the best purpose of poetry?
And if you can’t step out here, where can you? We’re all supportive. I have a daughter…’nuf said.
Thanks again. I really appreciate your support and candor. I changed the verbiage very slightly to avoid calling out people who may not need calling out! 🙂