Hour 1: The End of the Beginning

She wore a suit to the office and slicked her hair back.

The sun rose over her desk on the 12th floor each morning,

some mornings with her still at it from the night before,

way after the fireworks at Disney lit up the sky over the Matterhorn.

 

She often trembled and screamed in frightful hysteria,

whether in terror, rage, or frustrating fear, the office mates heard.

Until that day, when the mine went off, a planted time bomb,

and her head exploded inside a cage, inside the cement, inside–

 

When the four-wall howling ended and the gavel slam echoed

through a billion steps home, a fish tank then, she walked out.

And never looked back as the deputy screamed, “Get the fuck out!”

So she did and freed her bodily being, her mind not far behind.

 

She wears slippers and pajamas to work now, flexible hours,

and whispers, “thank you” to all she meets and all she doesn’t.

For all terrible storms, wind, fire, water, pour over the dead, or

soon-to-be-dead, until they learn to awaken and be, live and breathe.

 

1. Death is the beginning

 

Death is just the beginning,

not the ending.

A close of one chapter,

to begin another.

 

Our souls are trapped and bound

to our human body.

Death is a release towards immortality.

Emancipated, a beautiful butterfly flutters away

leaving behind its pupae to decay.

Alike, a rotted body is left behind

as the soul towards God will find.

 

Life us just but a stage of a journey.

Death is the door to eternity.

Death is the beginning of immortality.

Prompt # 1: Write a poem about something ending.

Something New

With red lights of apprehension flashing wildly

endings stroll into our lives.

We cannot stop it, or run from it.

When a season ends stable ground shakes like an earthquake.

The death of a loved one has a strength greater than man can create.

It can shift one’s trajectory in any unexpected direction

leaving the most organized person in a shambles.

But it is out of the dust that struts something stronger,

something beautiful, something new.

 

Yellow

I’ve searched for so long

to find that glimmering light in the sky

and then I realized it’s you.

You’re the yellow I’ve sought for eternity

shining brighter than anyone’s imagination can perceive.

 

You don’t have to reciprocate,

no need for some convoluted facade

but I hope one day you’ll understand

all the yellow you’ll ever need has been right

in front of you the entire time.

 

Your

endless

light

luminates

over the

world.

Hour 1 (2021)

For so long
I lived in the illusion
of our happy ending.
Until I learned that endings
can be found in the middle too.
It took me far too long to see
that my happy was in our ending,
which also became my beginning.
6/26/2021

The Move

Beginning the year
with all of her peers
Little did she know
About all of the fears

They lurked in time,
A few months down the road.
Her parents plucked her up,
Transplanted her in places unknown.

Gone were her friends,
Her favorite places too.
Gone were all of the things
That she knew to do.

She grieved.
She mourned.
She longed for the day
That she would be unborn.

1.

“The hearts metanoia on the other hand, turns without regret, turns not so much away as towards” – Scott Cairns

When I was two years old my parents bought a red brick building

I will return even after I have left
to finish emptying out the enduring things
Shelves hold the dust of grade six, seven, twelve, all of university,
my early work years and my first return to gain strength,
and my swift return in lockdown,
“I can’t seem to escape this place!”

I will return even after I have left
Helping with boxes of books, glass, history
Until we stand in the emptiness and the glowing floors
Piles of dust and detritus
Keys never identified for all the French doors
someone will have a broom and miss the moment
The end of endless returning

I will return even after I have left,
I know what hurts here, at least
Turn you can never come home again
Into this place is no longer home
Yield to what I cannot know
Turn towards three months in the east 

Go

When I was thirty they sold it.

“The Wait”

“The Wait” Poem #1

Zig, Zag.
Zig, zag.
Zig. Zag.

Through the line

I zig zag

All the way up to the front.

Waiting

Just like everyone else

 

Finally . . .

I’ve arrived.

The wait is over.

Hour One 2021

Hypnic Jerks

 

quiet afternoon

the big white cat

begins to twitch

 

birth

of a baby blue whale

nomadic dreams

 

heat wave

even rats

have reverie

 

soon

to be a grandfather

muse music

Oh, Dear

The world is turned on its side and

visible through a single cracked eyelid

perspiration coats the arms, the legs

upper lip

The culprit who stirred you is

the little man who turns on your brain and waits for it to start

warming up

He looked at his clocked and yelled

“Oh, Dear!”

Sounding the alarms you rustled

and see that it’s 6:50

Oh Dear indeed

Hollow chest

Gasping for breath you

claw for your laptop

and write the first poem of the day

all the while cursing your thin willpower

Heart bulges and balloons

trying to free itself through any openings in the body

Perhaps it’s my throat,

the papercut on my index finger

My ears.