9. Chocolate Cake

The whirring of the mixer.

The splatter of the batter

and into the baking tin,

then put into the hot oven.

 

As it cooks, the chocolaty aroma

permeats the kitchen of my Momma!

Everything is tasty that she bakes

But the best is her signature chocolate cakes.

 

Always a pleasurable childhood memory,

is the divine chocolate cake

of my Mummy!

 

 

 

Laceration

Bleeding like a hanging pig

still wandering these wastes

sometimes forgetting what I’m searching for

everyone says they’re out there

in this bombed-out building

or just beyond that dune

underneath a steaming sewer grate

and sometimes their evidence

can be found in star arrangements

discarded newspaper text lining up to spell locations

absent ringing in the ears, footsteps from behind

and yet I’m still searching

my shirt is crimson

my pants are clay

and my shoes are filling.

On the Cusp

I have always loved my birthday, June 21, the summer solstice, the longest period of daylight of the year. I have since met people who dislike it, because it marks the beginning of the waning of the light. Sheesh. It’s not as if the amount of light changes dramatically the next day. I once asked my mother how she managed to give her children such cool birthdays. My brother’s birthday is the same as our father’s. She said, “You know how I hate to wait around for things?” No, I never knew that about her. “Well, I asked to be induced.” Huh. I don’t know about her being impatient, but this does give me a quick glimpse of her as an expectant mother, doing all that she can to insure happy lives for her children.

sudden giddiness
spiralling up
with the thrush’s song

Color Wheel

Green like grass

Purple like a heart

Orange like a jacket

Yellow like a sun

Red like a cherry

Blue like a sky

White like a daisy

Black like night

Hour Nine – Beetnoon

Hour Nine – Look in your cupboards and find a food that brings up a childhood memory, and the memory is your prompt

 

Beetnoon

 

Rummaging in my kitchen shelf for some ground black pepper

to sprinkle over my omelette

I upset the carefully casual collection of jars skulking at the back.

Abandoning hunger along with the staid egg,

I decide to tidy the shelf instead…

… when this whiff attacked me.

And became a time capsule to float me back to

  1. Aged Six. Nine. Ten. Twelve. Fifteen.

My entire childhood.

My Indian childhood.

Of beetnoon or kaalanamak (black salt).

I don’t have an English name for you,

Oh, beloved half-forgotten magic potion.

I sprinkled you on everything.

On the healthy vegetables and daals, I was forced to eat.

On boiled potatoes and fried potatoes,

or the exotic potato wafers which came in packets.

A luxury. A rare treat.

The spicy, hot ‘n sour tang

hits the back of my nose now

just as it did fifty years ago.

My mouth fills with juicy anticipation.

Hunger returns.

I sprinkle beetnoon on my omelette

and savour the heat of childhood adventures

in the now cool foreignness of Scotland.

 

 

Holidays

The feeling as you step out on your last day of  school
Is amplified because the last few weeks of exams have been cruel
You feel relief, excitement and exhaustion all simultaneously
You are finally free

The stress evaporates in thin air
And now for the holidays you can prepare
Prepare to do nothing yet everything you desire
From the world you must retire

Stay up late and wake up late
Just enjoy the time of your relaxed state
So have fun and let your hair down
Its time to get rid of your frown

Colorful

I am an aurora.

I am a rainbow.

I am a black light, a white light.

I am a galaxy.

Just trying to be me no matter what.

Hour 9: the color of aundance

the humble watermelon

red and juicy in its plumpness

bought in abundance by my father

 

because I was fond of it

brings alive his love and warmth,

recites my parents’ endearing touch

and their wishes of seeing me flourish

 

nurturing and nourishing

extravagance and luxury

 

we will cut it into slices early

Sunday morning looking at each other

smiling and laughing

with newspapers spread on the table

to catch the sweet red drops if they may fall

to not ruin the sofa

to not invite an army of ants

 

a tender moment

separate from the rush

of never ceasing, pausing, ebbing flow of life