I’m laying here

Staring at the ceiling

Wondering how to make time go faster

Do I want to rewind and go back?

Do I want to fast forward and get further?

I don’t know if I want to go backward or forward

At this point

Now it’s been half the time

Half of three months

It’s been so long

But yet gone so fast

I just can’t decide

If I could go back

Would I?

If I did that I could change the choice I made

I could have stayed behind

I could have stayed close to you

Or do I want to finish this up

Just a little more time apart

Just a few more weeks without you

I know I can do this

But staring at the clock

The clock is a trickster

Playing with my head

Teasing my emotions

The clock is cruel

Then it hits me

I am learning so much from you clock

The distance

The separation

The time away

The space between

I have a weird relationship

An odd but definitely needed time

Now I want to thank you

You’ve taught me so much

I’m actual thankful

Thank you clock

Time is so precious

We must cherish every second

Thank you clock