I don’t understand it anymore
after I shut my heart off to it
it has been nothing but pain for me in the past
love – why is it happening again?

death took two away from me
why do I question it so much?
it scares me to love like this
but I deserve to love and be loved

I have loved him for many years
pushed him away every time
I’m scared to let it in fully
what if it’s taken away again?

my whole body wants to scream
all of these feelings hit like tidal waves
I still want my piece of happiness
but scared of losing it again

it’s far too late to give it up
we now have a baby girl together
he has asked me to be his wife
love – why is it happening again