Thrusting faceless hidden in hair
Why are you here with me
Forgetting who is laying moaning in front
Replaying moments I was inside you
Her grip cast myself inside you again.
Why months later is it still like this?
You cast every feeling you had inside of me.
Opened me to violation through disregard.
Are you condemned to fantasise about
Those men who heartlessly violated you?
Your every desire spoken to me
replays what they did.
Take me in my sleep
Take me in the shower,
washing my hair.
Take me doing homework.
Slip my clothes to one side
Tell me to be quiet
Hold your hand over my mouth.
Sell myself as she sold me.
Make me feel worthless
Use me totally – disregarded.
Exciting to raise adrenaline
Putting pressure on a wound.
I wanted to meet you here
To be gauze to your hurt
and bridge to your SELF.
I refused to leave and disregard
Angrily you cut me off
The pattern must continue.
Cocaine plaster building a wall.
I am left holding that savaged child.
Loving in the darkness
Contaminated for you.