Gaokao

GaoKao
Virginia Carraway Stark

If there was a battle cry
And all the years were packed
Into an afternoon
Of luck and hard work
The future determined
By what that day might bring
I don’t know that
I’d be more or less capable
Than any of my peers
I can see why the stars
And omens in the sky
Would matter more than anything
If things were done in such a way
With nary a second chance
In a land where no one stands
Above the others
In any but a negatory way
How sorry it would be
To have your entire life
decided in a moment
An afternoon determining
The future path
Who you may marry
The approval of your ancestors
Where your kids would go to school
The sort of job you could acquire
All from marks with your pencil
That is the battle cry
In a land far away
So it has been for thousands of years
Likely so it will always be
Ghosts are made by failure
Despair throwing people into the arms of death
Leaving the living to deal with demons
All for the pass or fail on a test!

FOURTEEN (4 stanzas of haiku)

I started high school

At fourteen and shy; it sucked

Boyfriend went away.

 

Small fish in a big pool

No one knows me at this place

Want to go back home.

 

Halls echo silence

There is no place to hide

All the others stare.

 

Are they also scared?

We can be scared together

Now I have new friends.

 

Wanderings

“I am home!” I want to scream, 
Though I am voiceless.
Silenced by the pounding of my heart
Which deafens me.
Wide-eyed, terrified
My heart and my mind keep secrets 
Preventing my body from moving.
”I am home.” I whimper.
To my mind’s ear.
No one answers.

Lost And Found

One may forget
The land
Home
People
Grounds one used to play on
Mountains they hiked
Soil,their father sowed seeds in

One may go to the city
Live in Tall buildings
Meet new people
Create another world

Then one day you go back
Realizing your mistake
Guess What
It welcomes you with open arms
Hugs you tight
Accepts you the you are
The land knows you even when you are lost….

Create

Create
Creativity
A human inheritance
A treasure passed
In DNA
And
Direct from gnarled hands

You need not earn approval
or
Brace always for assault

Your source is fathoms deep
In aquifers of inspiration
Gathered and waiting

For your coming

For your courage
To name your longing

For your resolve
To pick up a pen
To release your stifled song

You are rooted in lush soil
Meant to grow exquisite dreams

Draw from the earth
Grow towards your star

Knowing always
Favor is already granted
Supported and fortified
By the love and legacy
of all
That came before you

Taking care our earth in our hands

“The land knows you, even when you are lost.”

 

Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall-Kimmerer

 

A great responsibility on our hands

A guardian in our home

Taking part in our little deeds

 

Making lives meaningful

Doing our share and be part of change

Whispering in the earth

 

Traversing boundaries of humanity

A little planet with its plants along with ecosystem

Learning to be part of humanity’s venture

 

Prompt # 17 Hour # 14

10:00 AM PHT 23/06/2019

 

Disneyland Dr

There’s nothing quite like

the capitalist super port

of Disneyland in Anaheim.

 

Sometimes I feel bad, that

The place sucks our money

but I guess the stamp they

put on it suffices.

 

It’s one of those things

where the pretty surface is

thick enough to dismiss the ickier

parts way down below.

Create

A child of fine artists
A sibling to painters, potters, musicians, and poets
A cousin, niece, and granddaughter to more
I am the heir to generations of
Storytellers, painters, jewelers,
Potters, dancers, and singers

Engineers who changed the world
Artists who created for kings
Creators with documentaries and odes
Renowned and beloved

Create I tell myself
Notebooks for unfilled
Create I say
Art goes undone
Create I cry
Stories go unwritten
Create I wish
Dreams go unmanifested

What have you made?
I demand
What beauty do you bring?
I question

Myself
I reply
Unfinished
Transforming
Evolving

I have created myself
I am the art and the artist

I am a worthy successor to my lineage

(also these 12 poems)

Hour 14. (2019)

It courses through my worn-out sneakers

Animating my body

To trudge mindfully forward

Into green empires

Crowned by whites and reds and oranges and yellows

A determined soul guides a lost mind

Prompt 17 Hour 14

“The land knows you, even when you are lost.”

 

I looked to the pines

for answers I have yet to know.

I waded in rivers

too deep for my soul.

I hid secrets in oaks

searching for keys.

I wandered aimlessly

trying to please.

I never knew I was found

I never knew you were there.

Waiting for me to realize

I was always in your care.

 

C. Churchill