The Breath of Life (prompt 15, Hour 12)

Original Text for Erasure Poem:  The Breath of Life by John Burroughs

As life nears its end with me, I find myself meditating more and more upon the mystery of its nature and origin, yet without the least hope that I can find out the ways of the Eternal in this or in any other world. In these studies I fancy I am about as far from mastering the mystery as the ant which I saw this morning industriously exploring a small section of the garden walk is from getting a clear idea of the geography of the North American Continent. But the ant was occupied and was apparently happy, and she must have learned something about a small fraction of that part of the earth’s surface.

I have passed many pleasant summer days in my hay-barn study, or under the apple trees, exploring these questions, and though I have not solved them, I am satisfied with the clearer view I have given myself of the mystery that envelops them. I have set down in these pages all the thoughts that have come to me on this subject. I have not aimed so much at consistency as at clearness and definiteness of statement, letting my mind drift as upon a shoreless sea. Indeed, what are such questions, and all other ultimate questions, but shoreless seas whereon[Pg vi] the chief reward of the navigator is the joy of the adventure?

Sir Thomas Browne said, over two hundred years ago, that in philosophy truth seemed double-faced, by which I fancy he meant that there was always more than one point of view of all great problems, often contradictory points of view, from which truth is revealed. In the following pages I am aware that two ideas, or principles, struggle in my mind for mastery. One is the idea of the super-mechanical and the super-chemical character of living things; the other is the idea of the supremacy and universality of what we call natural law. The first probably springs from my inborn idealism and literary habit of mind; the second from my love of nature and my scientific bent. It is hard for me to reduce the life impulse to a level with common material forces that shape and control the world of inert matter, and it is equally hard for me to reconcile my reason to the introduction of a new principle, or to see anything in natural processes that savors of the ab-extra. It is the working of these two different ideas in my mind that seems to give rise to the obvious contradictions that crop out here and there throughout this volume. An explanation of life phenomena that savors of the laboratory and chemism repels me, and an explanation that savors of the theological point of view is equally distasteful to me. I crave and seek a natural explanation of all phenomena upon this earth,[Pg vii] but the word “natural” to me implies more than mere chemistry and physics. The birth of a baby, and the blooming of a flower, are natural events, but the laboratory methods forever fail to give us the key to the secret of either.

I am forced to conclude that my passion for nature and for all open-air life, though tinged and stimulated by science, is not a passion for pure science, but for literature and philosophy. My imagination and ingrained humanism are appealed to by the facts and methods of natural history. I find something akin to poetry and religion (using the latter word in its non-mythological sense, as indicating the sum of mystery and reverence we feel in the presence of the great facts of life and death) in the shows of day and night, and in my excursions to fields and woods. The love of nature is a different thing from the love of science, though the two may go together. The Wordsworthian sense in nature, of “something far more deeply interfused” than the principles of exact science, is probably the source of nearly if not quite all that this volume holds. To the rigid man of science this is frank mysticism; but without a sense of the unknown and unknowable, life is flat and barren. Without the emotion of the beautiful, the sublime, the mysterious, there is no art, no religion, no literature. How to get from the clod underfoot to the brain and consciousness of man without invoking something outside of, and superior to,[Pg viii] natural laws, is the question. For my own part I content myself with the thought of some unknown and doubtless unknowable tendency or power in the elements themselves—a kind of universal mind pervading living matter and the reason of its living, through which the whole drama of evolution is brought about. –END–

 

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The Breath of Life

As life nears its end
I find more and more
mystery of nature and origin,
yet without hope that I can find out
the ways of the Eternal
in this or any other world.
I am as far from mastering the mystery
as the garden walk is
from the geography of North America.

I have passed many pleasant summer days
exploring these questions.
Though I have not solved them,
I am satisfied with the mystery.

I have aimed at a clearness of statement,
letting my mind drift as upon a shoreless sea,
where the chief reward of the navigator is
the joy of the adventure.

In philosophy, truth seemed double-faced,
always more than one point of view,
often contradictory, from which truth is revealed.
Two ideas, or principles, struggle in my mind
for mastery: one, the idea of the super-mechanical
and super-chemical character of living things.
The other, the supremacy and universality
of natural law. The first springs
from my inborn idealism and literary mind.
The second from my love of nature
and my scientific bent.

I crave and seek a natural explanation
of all phenomena upon this earth,
but the ‘natural’ to me implies more
than mere chemistry and physics.
My passion for nature and open-air life,
though tinged by science, is a passion
for literature and philosophy,
something akin to poetry and religion.
The mystery and reverence
we feel in the presence of life and death
in nature is different from the love of science,
though the two may go together.

Without a sense of the unknown and unknowable,
life is flat and barren.
Without the emotion of the beautiful, the sublime,
the mysterious,
there is no art, no religion, no literature.

I content myself with the thought
of some doubtless unknowable tendency or power
in the elements themselves—a kind of universal mind
pervading living matter–the reason through which
the whole drama of evolution is brought about.

13 – Brave Enough

I want to do what the kids call, calling you out. But, if I do it, I will lose you, and some version of you is better than no version of you, so I don’t.

I want to unravel your twistings, but when I try, your sprintaway catches me out by the feet, and I am looking up at you, bees curiousing around my soft middle where I made you, and me just trying to shake you off, to stand and try another day.

I want to want to know who you really are, not who you have masked on for me. I want to be brave enough to want that enough to spoon out my mom eyes, so I can see you.

I want to be strong enough to live through what happens when I see you, and invite you into the truth, and you let me go.

Hour 13 -Words

Words are dwindling

They speak in nonsense now

Persnickety

Palindrome

Acquiesce

I am feeling haughty

Likened to Heliotrope

My message is unclear

Just throw some words

Onto the page

Any word will do

Santa Fe

Snarled

Snafu

Poetry is about words

Who cares if they make sense

Snickerdoodle as a sentence

Using Paris as a Homonym

Human resources at the Badger academy

I refuse to buckle into sense

I refuse to compromise my insanity

Take a Grizzly to lunch

And watch him Laugh

Take a poet to a dictionary

And watch him squeal

 

 

Quilt

My grandmother made me a quilt before I was born.

Blues and greens greeted me into this world,

Helped me learned how to crawl, my first word, how to walk.

A labor of love, created for the idea of a human,

I wasn’t real and tangible when she started sewing, but still, she sewed.

At the moment I don’t think she knew how much that quilt would mean to me.

Hold it to my cheek and the worries leave my body,

The cool fabric lowers my body temperature and suddenly I’m a baby again,

Filled with so much love, untouched by the sullied hands of this world.

An ocean of protection, keeping me safe at night.

I love that quilt, and it loves me too.

 

Erasure before Congress

Here in Washington, DC

We deal with such things

And we speak

And we speak

Clear and loud

Speak from the heart

Speak to be heard

Speak, Speak, Speak…

(Erasure poem-Fred Roger’s testifying before  Congress, 1969 – @Mejia2019)

Letter to the 20 Year Old Me

Hey, Dude.

I know its tough when someone dies. You’ve done that before but that was old people you knew would die. Different when it’s somebody your own age, really different when it was one of your best friends.

I know it was tough not being there. But truth be told, you learned a lot from handling this one on your own. Twenty, living alone in a small town, far away from family, friends. Your knack for solitude and introspection served you well when Johnny died.

It may not seem like it, but you’ll get passed it. And no, you won’t forget him or the times you had together.  I’d also lie to tell you he’ll be the last but he won’t. Fortunately most of your friends stick around for a long time.

Oh you’ll lose your share, but it is who you expect; grandpa, the pseudo grandpas and grandmas.  Not a lot of them totally unexpected.

Until you’re twenty-eight, and dad dies.  That’s the one that takes its toll. But the good news is, he left you with enough of a legacy that you’ll take it, run with it. You’ll be o.k.

Oh yeah, he also leaves you with some secrets to unravel and in time, you will. Not that it won’t cause some big ol’ headaches along the way.  You will discover some stuff about dad, and his family that may seem less than ideal. Don’t be deceived by first impressions. Or at least, don’t let them take control of the narrative.

In the end you’ll find it more amusing than tragic. At least I think you will. That one is still a work in progress, so I’ll have t9o get back to you.

Death will come easier for you than most, and that will make some folks uncomfortable. But you end up being the ‘go to’ guy for a lot of friends in crisis – and not just when one of the group dies.  Take it as a compliment, because it turns out (much to your surprise) that people trust you.

Strange as this may seem, you’ll find comfort in being ‘the man’.

There is so much more to tell you, but you’re not even of legal age yet.  But you will be soon, and the stuff you’re going through now will all make sense in a big way – but not for a while.

being an only child, you have become a master at figuring things out on your own, connecting the dots in a way a lot of others can’t.  Its part of that trust thing I mentioned earlier.

It doesn’t make sense now, but trust me – it will. And it will be so worth it.

For now, keep living your life the way you have been. Take in the moments, bring the memories with you. Use them, don’t abuse them.

It’s gonna be o.k.

Later dude.

Me, at 60

Hour 12 – Nonsense

Nonsense

The Fish-Footman began by producing from under his arm a great letter,
and this he handed over to the other,
saying, in a solemn tone, “For the
Duchess. An invitation from the Queen to play
croquet.” The
Frog-Footman repeated, in the same
solemn tone, “From the Queen. An
invitation for
the Duchess to play croquet.” Then they both bowed low
and their curls
got entangled together.

When Alice next peeped out, the Fish-Footman was gone, and the other was
sitting on the ground near the door, staring stupidly up
into the sky.
Alice went timidly up to the door and knocked.

“There’s no sort of use in knocking,” said the Footman, “and that for
two reasons. First, because I’m on the same side of the door as you are;
secondly, because they’re
making such a noise inside, no one could
possibly hear you.” And certainly there _was_
a most extraordinary noise
going on within–a constant howling and sneezing, and every now and then
a
great crash, as if a dish or kettle had been broken to pieces.

“How am I to get in?” asked Alice.

“_Are_ you to get in at all?” said the Footman. “That’s the first
question, you know.”

Alice opened the door and went in. The door led right into a large
kitchen, which was full of smoke from one end
to the other; the Duchess
was sitting on a three-legged stool in the middle, nursing a baby; the
cook was leaning over
the fire, stirring a large caldron which seemed to
be full of soup.

Psychobiology

The body, the mind
two that make one?
or one that makes two?
Nature, nurture
two that make one?
or one that makes two?
genetics, heredity
a determinist future?
or a eugenicist canard?
 
The soul or the neuron
The theory or the faith
The knowledge, the power
or the flailing in the dark
 
The human being:
a false dilemma
or an uncomfortable truth?

Dinner

Food cooking
Bread baking
Wine decanting

Table set
Diana calls
I come
Love follows

36 CORN ROAD (PART 4) THE REUNION

36 CORN ROAD  (PART 4)  THE REUNION

 

It was the best time I can remember

Family gathered in one place

Nothing fancy or pretentious

Just a field, the sun and love all around us.

 

The hay wagon was full from edge to edge

Foods so numerous stomachs wouldn’t growl for weeks

Even Aunt Imogene’s freshly sliced tomatoes would attract

The picky kids with the “no veggies on my plate” policy.

 

Why is it that as a kid, we didn’t mind having to make a trek

To the outhouse when duty, or doody called?

They had a three-seater complete with a smaller hole for us youngsters.

I can remember going with some of the aunties and I’d listen to the gossip

While we were all perched over our wooden depositories…haha!

 

And the cousins, Mike and Traci, Pam and Ronnie, Peggy, and the whole Dye clan

We played for hours, talked and talked, walked the woods, the creeks, the hills.

We walked up to the house on the hill and when we came back down, inertia would

Get the best of our legs.  It’s like we were flying.

 

It was time to clean up.  Get ready to head home.  But not before we listened for the

Whippoorwills…a bird we never seemed to hear at home.  The horses were coming in

From the pasture.  You could hear their hooves galloping through the stream.  Their force

Seemed to shake the earth beneath us.  IT WAS MAGICAL.

 

The only thing better than being there is being able to hold tight to these memories.