Lessons Never Learned

I am too tired to make a poem now.
It’s late, and Hobbits grace my flatted tube.
My stomach hurts from eating way too much,
But I get bored without a bit to taste.
Unorganized, my house, it’s such a mess.
Too many jobs. Too much creative love.

I think too much that I should have a love.
But it’s too late to love this woman now.
My womb is spent, my life a dismal mess.
I brush my teeth, forget to cap the tube.
The counter top has now the minty taste,
But clean it up might take a time too much.

At least I’m not depressed and sullen much.
Who knows! Some man I know might learn to love
This gilded aging dame’s eclectic taste.
Oh, I want one. I just don’t want him now;
For I no longer fit the model’s tube
With bulging gut, a broken flabby mess.

I’ll ne’er find passion’s heart, mine’s such a mess.
This world’s too dark, expecting far too much
Of minds deceived with propaganda’s tube.
We’re taught of lust, too rarely learn of love.
That instant rush, we always want it now!
To kiss too quick, forget to stop to taste.

Too few years left, no freedom here to taste
Democracy is just a fascist mess
And even though the world is waking now
Too few have taken oh so very much
They say we’re free, and sometimes speak of love
To us who sell our lives out to a tube

We are all gone! Our minds a flattened tube
No morals left. Just hate. A bitter taste.
A memory, a thought, the myth of love
Just shrouds what’s real – the whole disgusting mess!
The politicians that we trust too much
Are in it for themselves. We see it now.

And as I watch the tube, the fiery mess,
I realize I taste the fat too much
When I should know that love is always now.

Album

pages stuffed with old photos

of those who entered and left my life

painful and beautiful memories

of years past, and happy times


pictures of smiling faces

images of those who came before

some sitting, and some standing

with their feet flat on the floor


if the day came to pass,

and I had to flee

I would take my most prized possession

and keep it

 always with me…


By: KMH 2015

Fading beauty

Fading beauty

Sleeping beauty,creepy and cold dead.

Bugs eating flesh, swirling,swarming flies,nibbling,

Feasting on decaying carcass, worms munching,

Fading beauty disappeared,inside a cold and dark casket.

From ashes to dust.

 

Blackout

Have you been drunk before?

Like totally

not able to stand

or walk

without support..

 

In your mind

you are doing stuff

In reality

nothing

just sitting

or lying down..

 

Your mind

takes you to the moon

heart is lost somewhere ..

 

But the feelings

are in search

to flee

from the cage

our brain…

Thick Hung the Night

The air was too heavy

And I couldn’t breathe

Too sick to speak out

To God what I need

 

Don’t leave me in silence

To hear every sound

Late flight of bird

And foot on the ground

If he wants to speak

Let it be now

For my head is lost

In wandering cloud

 

Take Away from Fire

A little girl of almost nine,
Gets called to the Mother Superior’s office, with the rest of her family.
None of her brothers or sisters comply with the intercom request. They were never called to the office. They never got into trouble.
It’s a mistake, they think, telepathically. Mother Superior meant to call down a similar sounding Polish name.
We were told our neighbor will pick us up. We will meet our parents at a coffee shop.
There was a fire. No one was hurt. There was a fire. No one was hurt.
Thank God.
We live with our oldest brother’s family until our house is rebuilt. Fifteen people. Two bedrooms. One bathroom.
I no longer could complain of hand me down clothes and toys. I now had only charity clothes. There must have been toys. I don’t remember toys.
Fast forward forty-two years.
I attend a speaking engagement of John O’Leary’s.

Google him.

Gut-wrenching sobs for childhoods lost. Co-workers around the table, uncomfortably avoiding my eyes. Distancing themselves from me.
I wasn’t there. I wasn’t burned. Why are you crying? No one was hurt in your fire.

Material possessions are just immaterial.
Things are taken for granted in our lives of too muchness.

Until it isn’t there.

If I could save one thing from a fire., I would. It doesn’t matter what it is – it earns importance as a survivor of fire.

Hour 12: The Move

A life in boxes and crates: 30 years.
Thirty years of research in archives
and no thought of giving it away.
Libraries say they’ll take good care
and grant access any time, within
reason, 9 to 4, five days a week.
What about midnight on Christmas Eve,
when I need to read the diary notes
of Rose Wilder Lane or Elizabeth Bishop,
Edna St. Vincent Millay or Mrs. Lindbergh?
Most people relocate furniture, photos, appliances,
and clothes. Here is scholarly detritus enough to
fill a garage, a walk-in closet, and then some.
Dividing myself between four abodes – an apartment,
two houses, and a condo – none of them mine, I grow
unsettled and wistful to visit my things.
My books, especially, I miss with great longing,
although a well-stocked Kindle helps. But some
will never be scanned, digitalized, online at my
command. These are the books I swear to protect.
And my own diaries and manuscripts – they will not
be carted off to the bowels of an institution. For as
long as I can, I will keep them with me, and safe.

Hour Seventeen

What one physical object (I am not talking about your dog or cat or baby, but a possession) would you save in case of a fire? Your prompt this hour is to write a poem about that possession.
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It saddens me to think
that if the fire came today,
would my guitar or laptop—
music or words—go my way?

Hour 17

Ipod

Dear Ipod, I am selfish, inexplicably selfish
For all my love for you, is actually blemished
My desires for you spring from despondency
You prevent my lone soliloquy
You bring me the companionship
That I failed to find in kinship
You aid my escape
Into worlds I reshape
You bring reason to chaos
My Amos!
But I repeat, my love is tarnished
For had I not been banished
By all I loved
You would not have been so loved

Twelve…

They multiply at night like rabbits.

The boxes, oh, the boxes…

Taking over my home.

Oh, how they all roam!

Filled with things I do not need.

Oh, sooooooo heavy…

I imagine the match and I light it with my mind…