The night is cold, bitter.
I don’t want to be out here,
with my fingers chattering
more than my teeth.
It’s sticky in the shower;
I decided to mix
Head & Shoulders with
my sweat and blood.
Addiction gnaws at my wallet.
I have two children at home;
the eldest gets mad when
we’re 30 minutes late to school.
My youngest started drinking
at age fourteen. At sixteen,
he’s a self-proclaimed
alcoholic. What did I do?
Zephie, you are doing your best. You might not be doing as well as you would prefer, but right at this moment you are doing your best.
Life is hard and full of challenges, and clearly you are still trying, and that is wonderful.
The prompt this hour is to praise someone – how about praising yourself for a few minutes and set aside scolding yourself.
It is not just the power of positive thinking, it is reframing what feels like defeat into some kind of victory that will give you hope and energyl
Many people just give up totally. I know I have done so many times, but when you decide to give it your best again, let that be your reward,, that yo are able to try,, and do not focus on results. They are not guaranteed. But if you argue with yourself when you feel down and wretched and self-loathing, it will help. It will help. And you can do it. You are a caring mother and a worthy person.