Once, I could predict the gender of infants before birth. If I
focused now, I could still do it. But how do you do this?
By getting to know the parents.
These days, though, I let it go. I see the flood and release it
where it needs to be. Sometimes, pretending not to know
is better, although not for myself.
Lately, I’ve been struck by certain deaths. I haven’t uttered
a word, but I see them walking around, the stones around
their necks, waiting to jump into the sea. I see them looking
around, searching for gaps between the rocks, hoping and
not hoping they’ll be noticed, their eyes straight ahead
and then, with unbelievable suddenness, jump off from the
heights, seeing only peace at the bottom of the cliff.
© Ella Wagemakers, 13.59 Dutch time (= 7.55 EST in the US)