Blind
It’s been a long time
since I’ve managed to blink
for fear that I’ll miss
something important
I wanted to know
the truth of all creation
and I’ve regretted it
ever since
Hour 5
Everyone I ever knew
Has crowded onto my bed
Which is impossibly large and only grows
But I can see their faces each so clearly
Their mouths opening to speak
All one wordless noise
And then they’re gone
Proportions restored
And there you are
Breathing softly
Beside me
Raidho
Raidho
Are you ready for this journey?
The one that we call life
Do you have a destination?
Happiness, toil or strife
Are you moving forth with life force?
Or just along for the ride
Who straddles the saddle with you?
Friend, foe or nye
Are your ways and means ready?
Or are you just riding blind
Are you really in your body?
Or just traveling in a dream
I want to be in the sun with cocktails and you,
but I’m swimming in work with no end.
I’m plotting escape while battling sharks, Managing breaths that must last.
you lips are too far away in the surf, safe while I toil away.
your image fades and waters deepen,
leaving my skin cold as your warmth drifts further away.
Zen
The eyes are everywhere
Daring…
Glaring…
Faces at the windows
Staring…
Despairing…
Curled up in bed I hear your breath
Softly rumbling, sound of death
My head upon the pillow lies
In the dim light, a shadow flies.
My bladder aches, but I don’t dare
Get out of bed, I am too scared
The atmosphere is full of hate
I just can’t believe this is my fate.
I tremble inside, sheets up to my chin
I see the people, won’t let them in.
I whimper softly, eyes open wide
I know that there is no place to hide.
Walking sounds outside the door
I hear footsteps cross the floor.
A creak…
A snap…
A squeak…
A clap…
This house it’s called a place of Zen
I won’t dare stay here again.
Sense
I am the feather strokes of sage
Brushing against my palm
The desert sand shifting underfoot
I am the inhale that breaths the world
The intoxicating aroma of memory
Past and present alive in the same moment
I am the pressure that becomes a whisper
That becomes a cry, pealing across the sky
Filling the world with a cacophony of sound
I am the face that flickers
From my feet to the clouds
Scans mountain ranges and sapling forests
Soaks in the splashes of wild-flowers
Color in a sepia landscape
I am the parched lips parted
When the swirling cumulous let go the first drops of rains
I am the moisture sliding down my own throat, refreshed
I am beyond these things as I am them
I am inspiration like electricity flashing
Lightening the darkness and then gone
Flickers remaining to dance
along your skin
across your retinas
around your taste buds
about your nostrils
against your eardrums
I Am (2019 Poem 1)
Do you know who I am
Years before I thought I knew
Somehow my soul was lost to me
Here I am, misplaced in time
Walking on a distant shore
Although I don’t know where I am
I am myself in finding you
Finally I am free
While our journeys shall entwine
I see now that I am more
Sense
Sense
Senses
Portal to the present
The texture of presence
Where invisible and external
Meet and commune
Indivisibly twining stimuli and feeling
The origin and engine
Of all you perceive as you
In every moment
Beckoning you to be
A kaleidoscope of sensation
A tapestry of subtle sifting
A tumultuous confluence
The border guardian of the being
You have traced at your skin’s edge
and
The you that stretches to infinity
Dances on air molecules
A breath already sustaining trees
A chemistry that even beyond
Touch, sight, taste, sound, and smell
Will scatter and blend
A part and particle of everything
five
i struggle to count
the stars in the sky
because it hurts to lie
on my back
the earth does not welcome
my spine
nostrils inhale soft dirt
intoxicating
the newness of it
potential
possibility
fingernails grasp at
the permanence
forehead pressed firm
into the dirt
keeping the slugs company
trusting there is still a spin
in the stillness
knowing that my crouched figure
is safely hurtling through
the universe
the stars at my back
Hour 5: Post 5: Blood Lust
Tear me open
Rip me to shreds
Feed off my soul
Bathe in my passion for you
Take me as you wish
In the midnight hours
Which you seem to dwell
Lay with me in the darkness
Let me take you to hell