Tired

The church lock-in

Was from seven to seven

Games, snacks and movies

And a lesson on heaven

 

We played volleyball

And bowling with plastic pins

Pizza at 9:00

And passing TP with chins

 

The counselors

Were tracking pairs

Herding them back

For truth or dare

 

I made the awful mistake

Of falling asleep

Woke up covered in toothpaste

Dental floss around by feet

 

As I recall

I felt about the same

As I do right now

With little sleep, to blame

 

Unended

Who can see how this will end?

In pink-skinned babies,
with dark hair,
caramel eyes and leaden
hearts, like ours?

Or in two loveless graves –
full of all that could have been.

We must choose one or another,
we’ve seen there’s no third.

What I have not tried by way
of destruction;
you have tried thrice over.

Together we’ve seen an
ancient truth –

It’s love.
Or it is loss.

We cannot have both ways.

I will not be held in resignation –
not even (not even) by you.

Instead give me your strong arm
that knows its direction
and points the way that warms you.

You choose with the steel in your spine,
and I will choose with the fire in mine,

and let us stand in that grace
for at least one full moment
before we perish.

16. December Sestinas

Christmas tree

Everyone has a reason

To celebrate the season

Any way is all right

It is part of your life

If you don’t have a season

 

Revive traditions

Bring back memories

Enjoy what you have

Celebrate life

That is the reason

To celebrate the season

 

The essence

Is in your heart

The reason

Comes from above

Is tough to perceive

It’s time to find the reason

 

Not in the wrapping

Or in the store

Nor the food

Neither the place

To celebrate the season

May find the reason

 

Under a tree

Around the table

Inside a church

Close to families or dear friends

It’s time to find the reason

 

Or in the street

Make Merry

This season

Have hope

For a new tomorrow

To celebrate the season

 

It’s time to find the reason

To celebrate the season

Let’s celebrate

Disorder

I have stood at the edge

of the cliffs of sleep

looked upon the rocks

and waves crashing, wrestling,

and I have thought

to myself “will I ever have

a restful night?”

We Need

We Need
A world of smiling children
We need
A place to call home
We need
A time to call our own
We need
Friends to share our joy
We need
A world where a child can run into the street
And not be knocked down by cars
snatched by strangers
bombed by drones
shot by crazy gun yielding kid
We need…

Twenty~Three…

Sometimes I think you do not know.

Sometimes, I think… You do.

Sometimes I think I have to tell.

Sometimes, I think… You, too.

hour 19

To my daughter I write to say how I feel, I love you so much and that’s a big deal

Your dad is here to help you grow and teach you things like don’t hurt people and never steal

Your soft flowing hair to those cute little eyes you are my life you are my prize

I get upset when you dont listen but I tell you things so to the top one day you will rise

I will protect you and guide you I must show you the way

But for now let’s just cuddle and save that for another day

You are the inner happiness  that without I can’t do

Oh my sweet daughter I hope that you know how much daddy loves you

Autism

I get asked all the time, “Why are you so quiet?”

At parties, I walk around and listen,

unsure of when to join a conversation or, worse,

when to let go and walk away.

I have taught myself strategies, ways to get along.

Those I share the problem with

react in different ways. Some don’t believe me,

others say, “It can’t be that bad.”

But they don’t know about the nights I hid,

choosing to stay inside,

rather than go out and deal with how different

I communicate and try

to relate to strangers that can’t see the loneliness

of not “getting it” or getting it all wrong.

Unfounded

Wasted time during the day

insomnia in the eve

what’s really influencing me

Is it really there or the fright of what could be

I didn’t notice

I didnt notice I broke your heart
Virginia Carraway Stark

When did I last hear from you?
Or did you expect to hear back from me?
You summed it up when I walked away
And didn’t notice that I broke your
Exposed heart
I didn’t know you were playing
To keep me
It didn’t seem that serious to me
It’s been awhile
To hear this is such a matter
For years and crying
My love wasn’t even in the table
Because I didn’t know
How little I noticed you
Broke your heart