Hour 18

I like the idea I had going here but I’m tired and my brain can’t think through long thoughts.

 

Hour 18 used prompt

 

It’s odd to feel almost haunted

When I spend time with them

They are still here

Still real

But they said they could be sick

And if they are who knows how long they get 

So I feel followed by the shadow

Of possible loss when I’m with them

We

Maybe it is just me
a lifestyle that robbed me of language
under attack by enemies,
real and imagined
cheated by phantoms
whining and gnashing
Maybe it’s just me
and the alienation isn’t real
when you can’t see it.

Chaos Bound – Hour 21

He there when existence began reality’s sonata.

Resonant in its authority and importance in a bid to obtain affirming stigmata.

Resounding lives ever fail to perceive the clarity of oblivion.

Oblivious to the purity of the void’s song, sung in hell’s season.

He was the overture of this so called living pièce de résistance”.

Chaos wrought creation and it is in this anarchy he sings his opus.

Off it

Come down off the saddle
can’t here you
from all the way up there
Isn’t it better to see eye to eye?
I don’t like to be looked down upon

Hour 19 – Decay & The After

Decay & The After

 

In my own journey away from life, 

all I can ask for is a falling apart that is proactive

 

let my eyelashes blow from my face

like a dandelion, let them fly, let me fly

 

let me pretend where they land, 

I will have more opportunities to grow

 

let my nose melt into anthills

to make my body home, no, many homes

 

let maggots bleed from my cheeks,

dripping from dwellings of their own creation

 

let my hands turn to mouths turn to ash

let my lifeline speak before I combust

 

let my body be 

and be

 

and be

until it isn’t

 

until it all falls apart

You stopped loving me

My lips moistened
your soul,
my words stunned
your thoughts,
you stopped loving me
when I showed you
that you were no longer the sun
of my days and
the moon of my nights.

You stopped loving me when
you stopped being my horizon,
You stopped loving me when
you stopped being a dragon
and became a man.

You stopped loving me when
you stopped being my shadow,
You stopped loving me when
you let my body
and my lips belong to another man.

5 AM – PRIDE

sighs and closed eyelids,

taste of saltine crackers

between cracked lips.

 

hold my rib cage together

so my heart can’t escape

my chest.

 

pavement scratches my knees,

batters them, but it’s just a

misdemeanor.

 

slapped on the wrists

while walking on Mass Ave,

the rainbow road

marks my belonging.

 

claps and pats on the back

line the street,

and the feel of smiles

widen mine.

 

the shame I held fades,

regenerating pride.

Choices

People say happiness is a choice and if you choose to be happy you’ll be happy. There are days when I choose happiness but I still feel sad. So, I have to disagree with happiness being a choice. On the other hand, life is a choice. So, whether I’m happy or not; I choose life.